Brain dump...

Procrastination is a funny old thing

It’s not lazy and it's not unproductive - it's just life in slow motion...or something

My wonderful time at Disney came to an end last week, I am unemployed for this week and then next week I will start my next adventure in Music PR and small events for Urban Development, working with some great people and learning some valuable skills. It's nothing I can’t handle, 2 days a week. And for the rest of the 5 days of the week I'm looking for part time work in retail or admin just so I won’t kill myself every time I look at my depleting bank balance. I'm excited and this week in between while I have all this wonderful free time I will be sorting out my portfolio of work, doing some freelance bits online, working on Trapstar deadlines, having a wardrobe overhaul and also preparing for my weekend in Amsterdam...but I'm procrastinating a little today!

It’s nothing I can’t handle I just have to be in the right mind frame when approaching tasks, I do this for a living organising and planning; but when it comes to doing for myself I just can’t seem to figure out where to start!

It's been awhile, heres some thoughts!

At 26 I felt like I had anti-climaxed in my path in life and went from high to low very quickly…the low lasted too long and fed up of being at the bottom I had to start things up again. It was like I went back in time- handing out CVs in shopping malls - and I almost felt ashamed and then I looked up and saw I wasn’t the only one walking around with an A4 plastic wallet, I sucked it in, looked my best and walked around with a smile reminding myself that money is money and some money was better than sitting in the Job centre reporting to some dude who didn’t care about me and the fact that I was unemployed, he was getting paid still. So there I was trying hard and eventually I got my lucky break and it was all day everyday retail slave labour on minimum wage. Worked my ass off and didn’t have 1 weekend to myself to rest. I decided that if I had spent that long doing nothing and being depressed, that I would spend every minute now working hard and getting myself back on top form.

My post graduate started 4 months later. I decided to go back to school and do an event management training course, since I was starting fresh as my options for more money were limited. I put my head down and attended class everyday and again found I was not alone in my path to success, I get my grade in a couple of weeks - I deserve a distinction... I’ve done some more volunteering and continue to put myself forward for free work, to gain experience, new skills and meet new people who I shake hands with in the hopes that they might be my next big break. Never for get your Ps and Qs, don’t loose your attitude and be polite with everyone because if someone tries to stomp on your day with them bad attitude you wouldn’t like it. I've finished my course and I'm now doing an internship for a venue finding agency - I dont like it much and I'm a gloried skivvy in all honesty, but they are giving me some good expeirence and it's only for three months.

Being unemployed or stuck in a rut can be hard, trust me I KNOW – but these little things add up to the big things and while you’re unemployed/stuck in a rut you cant change others – you can change/better yourself, you got all this time to practise. Hope is around the corner, don’t give up hope!

Busy Little Elephant mode!

I have been working full steam ahead at Vans and the shit don't quit. Sorry for the lack of postings but I have been extremely busy working all the hours under the sun for what I can only describe as minimum wage - but I'm grateful as I have spent the last year doing nothing - well not nothing.

Today is my first day off in 5days and already they got me going in on my day off at 5pm to cover the Thursday late night shopping shift....I'm such a sucker for some extra pay! And this is kinda whats its gunna be like for the rest of the month, working my butt off - Work is fun, small but cute team of stoners (my people) and my assistant manager is a definite sight for sore eyes - MAMA!!!!

I got lots of cool uniform including this cute pair of black/black checkerboard cuties!

My staff discount is beyond amazing at 50% and I've made some new friends around Westfields and got the hook up in some retailers including G-star, Topshop and Diesel.

They say things/good fortune comes in 3's I now have a job but it don't stop there I have an interview for a second....yes second....part time job as an ad hoc receptionist at Wembley Arena....fingers crossed. And yesterday I got the most unexpected text from DJ Abrantee asking me if I could come in and assist on a show he's covering on Saturday night...of course I said yes. It weill be nice to be doing some radio production stuff again.....

I'm so focused right now I haven't had any time for trees or teasing boys!

The odds are against me...thank Gawd for Horoscopes!

If you're like me, one for the 2.3million people in the UK who is unemployed and actively looking for work, I want to take this time to say congratulations for not jumping off a bridge, building , NCP, roof top......something of height! I know it's hard and with odds like 2.3 million against you in a recession, I'm at a loss for advice to give but keep trying and dont give up!
The odds of a job are slim, online job sites and applications cut that slim in half! Where as before 10 people were applying for a job now 50 people are competing online! I can do between 50-80 jobs one-click apps a day through online sites and I might get 3 (if I'm lucky) call-backs in a week and 2 of them will be just to find out a bit more about me - because my CV and cover letter didn't spell it out clearly enough! The Job Centre has job search machines which has helped me find my perfect job in Carlisle...where?? I live in London!!! - but their just puttin you in touch with another recruitmentagent not the actual job. Recruitment agents waste your time, I have 7 - and what have you done for me lately!? And then there's handing out your CV in retail outlets... retail is not in any way demeaning but this was something I thought was behind me after slaving it out in sweat box shops on minimum wage for the best part of my teens! You have to hand out 20 to get at least 2 call backs and that's if your CV makes it past the counter girls....
**Oh Gawd, I just read this back - how depressing - PLEASE DONT KILL YOURSELF!!!!

Today after pacing the whole of Westfields I handed out 20 of my 30 CVs to retail outlets of whom 15 were actually hiring and I got 1 response. An interview and a trial shift at Vans tomorrow....goodluck to me and to those of you with interviews tomorrow including my friend Byron!

Body wrecked and hungry I read this in the paper on the way home and made me smile...I'm a Taurus...but of course!




Boy!!! I hope it's true!

Mash up the dance with my eyes shut.....

How hot is she!? the green patent dress and boot are SICK!!!!! I want, I want, I want! Ciara never fails to bore me in her videos by showing me how many different ways she can wine her waist and pop her booty - love ya girl...

Of course you're girl Von Mistry can dance like that - mash up the living room with my eyes shut, got the moves down and im ready for the club.....but of course!

....these dudes just cant get it right!