One day...love will come my way

BUT FOR NOW THESE SONGS PLAY AS AWESOME SOUNDTRACK FOR ANY LOVE STORY REFERENCES....

























CAN YOU TELL I'M A 80S BABY

This!

Been busy but here's a catch up!

been working at the Trapstar Shop this summer!

Also cant get enough of that dance/electro/house/dubstep beat that keeps my feet tapping and ass shaking and this is one of my hot tracks for the summer...oooohhhh yyeeeaaaahhhh!

Shout to my boy Ash Catch'em who I have been working with on his PR for his second mixtape
check out the intro and click here to download the full mixtape for FREE!

Indian Wedding Season of course!

I've attempted and succeeded in doing this


but failed in this mission....still trying though


Also I wish I had someone to play this for...or someone played it for me...is that sad? - This song raises the hair on my neck and sends chills down my spine!

Katy B - Go Away

Katy B's album has been on heavy rotation in my car and if you have been a co-pilot you would know this...Actually Katy B has been on heavy rotation since I heard angelic vocals on many house tracks in the last couple years.

The album in a sentence is basically: love for raving and the joys & pains & heart felt emotions that come with men/boys/love...story of my life I swear hahahahaha

"...you open your eyes, watch me lying there

what good to know what you see, once i get to know what you feel

and what you think, if only i could step in your skin

but you see i already know, it'll end in tears when you carry out all my fears

being here's a dangerous game, ill end up insane

and only have myself to blame..." < this is scarily real!

This song has struck chord with me...I need to be braver next time

Here's what you've missed!

The last 2 weeks of bank holiday freeness, working, drinking, smoking, partying and generally throwing caution to the wind has left me with a few post birthday blues, but before I get that off my chest...

Just wanted to share some beautiful moments of the last 2 weeks with you since I was too consumed to blog.

this soothes me my mind!

Bank Holiday raves are the bestest - Living Proof is always a good shout. Me and running-on-black-people-time-late-but-always-on-time besty had fun

and it was good to see my jojo back in the country also!

These two young lovebirds got hitched, sending out some positive love vibes. I could have been really patriotic and gone into london and watched this but instead I watched form the comfort of a cave...here's the money shot!

Happy Birthday Me!!!

Thanks to everyone who happen to randomly be there to celebrate my birthday and also s/o to @forever_famous for the pics, you can see more of his work and opinions here

more snaps courtesy of everyone else who came and shared my birthday drinks and BBQ

NB: 2 of my favorite people, lee and mich - together we are the 3 dancing monkeys :p

THANKS for everyone who took part in the last 2 weeks and especially to my family especially parents who despite our difference always have my back!

At 28, I spent this last week half working, half progressing but also taking a couple steps back to reflect and generally act like a mad woman and allowing all my inner fears, paranoia and insecurities rise to the surface. But fear not, their firmly out of my system and even though I am slightly ashamed of my actions, my misdirected venting that went sideways...I cant help but be my self and express my self when I do, as I do. I'm not completely evil or anything - just a bit 'bipolar' someone perfectly called it!

Here's to being one year older, wiser, faster, stronger!

Dear Aunty Mistry

I find myself being questioned for answer by my girlfriends all the time about relationships like I’m some guru. I’m not. I have had 1 great loving relationship that unfortunately ended in heart ache, 2 twisted relationships that kinda faded into the past, dated a string of guys who I didn't sleep with and slept with a few guys that I didn't date. I don’t think I’m an expert of relationships but I am becoming an expert at knowing myself and knowing what I want and what I don’t like and to avoid those situations. I admit that I was a big preacher and non practicer but as I get older and wiser I find myself just turning away from situations that I used to run into - with scissors! Ha

Having a strong female and family base with classic morals and values has moulded me into the woman I am today. I am the way I am with men, not because I've been hurt and lied to, I am the way I am because I have been loved and know what it is to be cared for. I have some great memories of some fun situations, they didn't work out but I chose not to remember the bad, rather just focus on the good. This post goes out to girls, guys, the next generation, those who are looking for love in the wrong places and those who are a bit unsure.

So it was funny when I was talking to one of my close male friends about relationships. He couldn't understand why girls wanted to jump into relationships so fast, Why they got clingy after 1 date and wanted it all or nothing now? 1 or 2 dates didn't give him enough background information to know if this girl was potential girlfriend material... I told him every girl was different; don’t paint them all with the same brush. My advice to him was to communicate his feelings, be up front and tell her the deal. I have found in the past with some older men I dated that because they were honest about the situation before we got into anything, time spent with them was so enjoyable and fun because I didn't spend hours psycho-analysing everything he said and about where it was going. It was the guys who were conceited and didn't know what they wanted past sex that made me feel cheap and disrespected afterwards - and that’s essentially what it boils down to.

If you walk into a situation with your eyes open your wits about you and the respect for yourself and others you can’t go wrong. I think loneliness can make us grasp onto false idealism's of affection as soon as someone shows you an ounce of interest. What’s the harm in spending a couple months getting to know that guy/girl and then seeing where it goes..seriously how can you get into a relationship with someone you don’t know?! Security comes from within; so why not spend time hanging out, becoming friends. It's OK to share a couple kisses and intimate moments; it could lead to a stronger happy relationship in the future, and IF it doesn't work out, at least you've gained a friend. Even if that doesn't happen, at least you both walk away with mutual respect instead of mutual dislike. This way you learn and lived and love and the world is a happier place, which equals a less jaded London. If more people did this there would be less c-list UK rappers chatting rubbish on twitter about ‘typical gyal’ and ‘why girls are dumb’ and there would be less vengeful girls saying ‘fuck men’...haters of love me thinks!

To all guys and girls... and that potential one out there for me:

I know myself, I love myself, I’m not perfect but I’m getting better at this life game every day. I love my life, my family, friends and my work. And I will have these things before, during and after you. Compliment my life share my smiles, don’t try be all about it and I’ll do the same for you. I hope you hold some of these same values, cos we could build some great memories together.

for anyone who's loved and lost